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Clean Eating and My Fears
Posted by Deb, Diet, Weight Loss and Fat Fighting Blogger! | Posted in Diet, Discovery, Food, Fried Wiki | Posted on 18-12-2007
I’m afraid of giving up foods that I enjoy. I have an eating disorder, and become obsessive about food. I’ve been controlling it better than I used to for the last few years.
I was afraid of giving up food that I enjoy awhile ago too. I found safe alternatives. I found a low calorie version of most things that I like now. That’s been a saving grace to me. While it’s been working for me up to this point, I’m about to make a change.
Have I mentioned I’m terrified of change, when I’m not the one who initiates it?
My trainer was talking to me today, and let me just say I greatly respect and adore this woman. She’s good for my mind, soul and body. She’s truly helping me on so many levels….anyway, we discussed clean eating.
The task at hand is to eat clean for 3 days. It’s only 3 days. I can eat how I want on Saturday. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, I’ve committed to eating a clean diet. That means no preservatives, no boxed goods, no cans, none of that stuff. Meats, vegetables, fruits, eggs and the sort….seeds, nuts, and popcorn are safe as well.
It’s not a huge thing, but in my head, I’m in a panic. What? I can’t have anything else, nothing? Oh my gosh, I better eat it all now, since I’ll never be able to have it again! Wait…slow down there girlfriend…it’s 3 days. Oh yeah, okay, three days, it will be okay.
Deep breath….I can do this, right? It’s only three days. I can do this.
I will do this.
Starting now.
[…] This next phase has me eating clean. I started out in a panic, eating clean for 3 days on, 1 day off. I’m up to about 5 days clean now, 2 off. My goal is to only have 2 cheat meals a week. No more…and maybe down to one. I’m taking it slowly, but I’m really feeling it. I want to make a difference, and I’m ready to. […]