Hey! How have you been? Welcome back…I’m reading and reviewing “The Fat Loss Bible” by Anthony Colpo. I’m up to chapter 9, and this is about how to calculate how much food you eat, and how much of each type of food: protein, carbs, and fats.
Do you know what else I did today? I went to a personal trainer. That’s right, all size 22 of me went and hired a personal trainer earlier this week. I’m taking this seriously. I’m going to work out with a trainer, and I’m going to read this book, and see if I can finally make a difference. I’m lucky I’m still able to stand! LOL (Yes, I’ll put pics up eventually (sooner than later), even if it’s completely embarrassing. It’s important that other people can see that yes, even a big girl can try. I haven’t given up, and I’m just not ready to yet.)
Anyway, I decided from reading things so far, I should add in strength training, and let’s be honest, I haven’t lifted a weight in years. I’ve walked and stuff, but I needed one on one help to get me started. I’ll be working with someone for a few weeks to get me going, because I don’t want to injure myself. I did that to my foot when I started walking up and down the hills, and paid for it for 6 weeks. I’ll decide as I go if I’ll continue or not. It’s not cheap, but I’m worth it. If I don’t do something soon, I’ll only get bigger….and that SCARES ME.
I had to let her weigh me, take pictures, and measure me. My calf is probably the size of her waist. I felt naked and exposed, being all fat in front of her tiny little trainer body. I stood in front of the mirror, doing a stretch after doing some weights, and I wanted to cry. How did I get this big? I looked at myself and felt embarrassed to be there suddenly. I stopped and reminded myself, I have to start somewhere, and this is where I’m starting. I can hide in my pajamas at home, or in my baggy sweats when I’m out, but here I was standing in a small gym, and all of me was staring back at me. I had to look at myself, and it was depressing.
Another client came in during the second half of my time…I think she did a double take when she saw me. I’m not your typical gym bunny. I’m someone gym bunnies make fun of. I hope she thinks, “She has to start somewhere too”. The hardest part is ignoring the thought that others will think or say things about big ole me in the gym. I have to do this…I have to do this.
Sorry to get off track, just catching you up to where I am. The trainer asked if I wanted to sign up for nutritional counseling, but I said not at this point. I’m going to try to use what I’m learning in Anthony Colpo’s “The Fat Loss Bible” and see if it helps me make a difference.
So here we go, diving into chapter 9. I’m reading it and commenting as I go. It’s easier for me to react as I read, then go back and try to summarize. Hey, I’m 40! My memory isn’t what it was 20 years ago!
He talks about strategy, and that he’s choosing a lower carbohydrate food plan, because of research and observation, it has a better impact. There’s more to it, so let me keep reading. This is not Atkins. I’ve done Atkins. Okay, he gives you a template which tells you what your requirements are and how to apply the formula to your own body. I hate that he uses grams, and kg instead of pounds. My bad for not being good at translating it, but I’ll just pop up a calculator that converts it. OOh, he does give you a chart thought, so I don’t have to do a lot of number punching. I just have to figure out what my weight converts to in grams. Oh wait, I can just use my height thingee here, and then do it. Easier! I hate equations.
Okay, let me spell this out. This chapter will take a little bit to figure out your numbers. What the outcome is though, is you’ll have excellent information, and know what to consider your range. I like how he discusses building your own personal baseline diet. It needs to work for you, not for everyone else.
The next chapter will help you take those numbers, and understand how they work on your plate. Can I just say again, I hate equations. Look, you only have to do it once, and it will be worth it, but I want a chart that lists stuff easier! I dont’ want to do math….okay, suck it up and just move on.
I’ll be okay.
I’m full of thoughts and emotions today from my experience earlier. I’m proud I did it, I went and got help, and I’m going to work on me. I was embarrassed and ashamed I was so big when I saw myself in all those mirrors. I was proud I did the full amount of time and kept up. I know I’ll feel it tomorrow. I was embarrassed when the other person came in. I felt even bigger….she was small and cute. I was not. I was red faced, sweating like crazy, and my hair was messy from sweating. She was cute, in a fun outfit and looked like she stepped out of a magazine. Anyway, it’s just letting me look at myself fully. I don’t want to look like this. I was once a very pretty girl…what happened? Where did it go so wrong? How did it get this far along?
Either way, I have “The Fat Loss Bible” to learn more information, help me shatter myths, and now I have someone to help me strength train too. I can do this…I have to do this. I really want to do this.