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I hate myself right now. I just binged on Double Stuff Oreos. I ate 3/4 of a bag, and I know that if the rest were there, I would have eaten them as well. I’m angry right now, because I only bought one container of Oreos at the store. I need something else. Dinner is in 15 minutes, and it will fill in..step-in so to speak for the Oreos. Let me shovel it in my mouth, and I’ll stifle these emotions of anger.

I feel a lack of respect in a situation and three times today, that issue is coming up. I’m trying not to control a situation, but it’s controlling me, and I’m about to go through the roof, so Oreos were my drug of choice. I’m grateful I don’t choose a harder drug or drink, but I hate how I turn to things so I don’t snap with my emotions. I’m angry, I’m frustrated, and though I’ve stated it, it doesn’t seem to matter.

I don’t want to be this way, but I’m not ready for help. I’d rather deal with the bag of Oreos than those feelings of anger coming to the surface. I don’t want to yell, I want to use a calm voice and state my thoughts, and yet I feel it bursting from my gut up to my throat….QUICK! Shove something down my throat, don’t let it out.

I want to cry, because I don’t want to be like this. I’m a grown woman, and I would rather deal with some extra calories than the feelings I’m looking at. What’s wrong with me? Why do I do these things?