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I decided I don’t like the elliptical trainer. It’s okay, it’s nothing personal, it just challenges me the most. I like to know I can do something, and when something is a little challenge, I’m okay with that. When something literally makes me hate it when I’m on it, that’s something completely different. I realize I’ll have to change that one minute at a time.

How do people keep going and going? I did 5 minutes frontwards, then 5 minutes backwards, and thought I my legs wouldn’t hold me anymore. I hate that stupid machine. Maybe one day we’ll be friends, but it wasn’t yesterday. I do love the weight training portion of my workouts with my trainer. This is going to be a good thing, I can feel it inside.

I walked about 2 1/2 miles this morning like usual. Honestly, I don’t know what to call it 2.5 or 3.0…i feel funny writing 2.8 every time! Maybe one day the scale will move. We’ll see. Either way, I’m not giving up. Can I just say walked? I could, but I don’t want someone to read it going, “fat girl”, probably only walked down her driveway….not trying. See, how stupid is that, it’s my blog, and I worry someone will think I didn’t walk far enough. It’s frustrating to live inside my head sometimes.

I watched “The Biggest Loser” last night and that really inspired me to want to push myself more. I cried about 6 times during the show. When you’re overweight like that, and you feel like you’ll never see your regular body again, it’s emotionally charged, because you relate like crazy. My thin husband doesn’t have that same reaction, because he hasn’t had those feelings. He fully supports me in anything I do, and I appreciate that more than you can ever know. Being overweight and feeling secure in your relationship is a gift, truly.