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The Obsession is Gone
Posted by Deb, Diet, Weight Loss and Fat Fighting Blogger! | Posted in Discovery, Fried Wiki | Posted on 12-03-2008
I feel like something clicked. Maybe it was seeing all that butter together…
Sometimes I look in the mirror, and while I know things are changing, I just can’t see it. I only see my faults. Lately, I’m noticing good things though. I noticed my shoulders are more narrow, almost like a “normal person”. Ahhh, very telling, there…did you catch that? I must not be normal, if I’m this big. I’m finally feeling more “normal”.
When you feel like an outcast, everything is exaggerated. Nobody has outcast me, I’ve only done it to myself. In my brain, I separated myself based on my size. Funny, because I don’t do that to my friends or even strangers, only to myself.
…on a bright note, I think my obsession has gone. I’m not sure what happened, but something just clicked. I’m working hard, I’m eating well, and that’s all I can ask of myself right now. I’m doing well…and I finally believe it.
After 6 months of obsession, it’s gone. I woke up and poof, it just wasn’t there anymore. Imagine all that energy I put into it before…wasted time. I couldn’t focus on much besides that, but now it’s gone, and I can breathe again.
I feel good, and it’s a blessing. I’m not embarrassed, not ashamed…I’m just, well….I’m okay with me. 
