A 3 Second Glance Changed Me
Writing by Deb, Diet, Weight Loss and Fat Fighting Blogger! on Monday, 5 of May , 2008 at 12:31 pm
I went to Longwood Gardens yesterday. It’s a beautiful property with gardens, trees, fountains and more. It’s a great place to visit when the weather is nice, and we ended up walking around for about 2 hours yesterday. I was having a really nice time, walking hand in hand with my husband, talking, laughing and enjoying the sites.
I went in to use the ladies room, and as I was walking to the sink to wash my hands, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Holy cow, you’re fat! It was like some secret that was let out in front of hundreds of people. I stood there ashamed that I looked this way.
No fair, I’ve been working out for months on end, and my body isn’t changing. This is no secret, I’m aware of this, and we’re trying to fix the situation. In fact, I have an appointment today with my doctor to discuss insulin resistance.
At THAT MOMENT, I stood horrified. Is this what I’ve looked like walking around all day. The smile slid off my face, and I wanted to cry. I’m still so fat…I don’t want to be fat.
I had to make a decision…let this moment change my mood, or go back to having a good time. I chose having a good time. It’s a step in the right direction. Often times, I let my entire mood change, but I was winning this time. I said, “it is what it is”, and after washing up, went back out to hold my husband’s hand, walk in the sunshine and visit the gorgeous flower beds and fountains.
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Hi, I'm Deb and I'm one of those roller coaster dieters. I want to lose weight, I don't care anymore, I want to look good, I'm tired of thinking about food, and such. Exercise is like a dirty word that I'm trying to make friends with. We'll see how it goes.
