Hitting a Brick Wall
Writing by Deb, Diet, Weight Loss and Fat Fighting Blogger! on Tuesday, 27 of May , 2008 at 12:25 pm
Here I am…seventh inning stretch….those last miles of a marathon, and that big arse brick wall sits in front of me. While technically, I’m not that close to my ending, this is the point where a big brick wall dropped down in front of me. It’s going to take a lot to get through it….
Let me explain!
I’ve been going to the gym and working out. I love my trainer, and I love how hard I’ve been working. I’m proud of myself. I’ve been eating so well, I almost don’t recognize myself. This has been happening for months…
…but I’m feeling stagnant. I just started some meds that should help my body kick it into gear. Here it is, summer on us, and I’m putting on shorts again. I’m realizing, I’m still the exact same clothing size, almost 9 months later. What the hell is the point of working so hard, if I can’t lose weight.
I’ve eaten what I wanted, done what I wanted and stayed the same size. Why do I have to work so hard, to just be the same size? It’s not fair…and I’m frustrated.
Work really hard, pay lots of money, bust my ass…see no change. OR….do what the hell I want, and stay the same. See what I’m saying?
Look, I know it’s a personal struggle, and I have to hang in there. I have to climb that wall, and realize that my health is better, whether my hips look better or my stomach changes right now.
It’s a frustrating place to be. I want to keep moving forward, but technically, I’m making as hard on myself as I possibly can. I am resisting every step of the way this past few weeks. I need to just let go, get to my appointments and take one day at a time.
I’m a small child in a woman’s body saying “I DON’T WANT TO!”
I started to climb that brick wall once before…but I slid back down. I’m going to start the climb again. I want to reach my goal and get to the end of this journey. I at least want to get a little closer to my goal…it’s just so damn frustrating, and I don’t understand why my body refuses to cooperate.
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Comment by Amy
Made Tuesday, 27 of May , 2008 at 1:04 pm
I’m sorry you’re not seeing any results after all this time, Deb. I can only imagine how frustrated I would be if that were me. I really hope the meds do the trick to get your body back on the right track, responding how it’s supposed to!
Hi, I'm Deb and I'm one of those roller coaster dieters. I want to lose weight, I don't care anymore, I want to look good, I'm tired of thinking about food, and such. Exercise is like a dirty word that I'm trying to make friends with. We'll see how it goes.
