Motivation has been Elusive

You see, when I’m eating normal, I don’t gain. I stay the same. When I work hard, I stay the same.

Maybe it just comes down to moderation. Ya know, a little at a time, and you’ll be just fine. I’m not sure, but lately, while ideas float in my head…”maybe I should do this, maybe I should do that”, I just drift back to living my life without obsessing over food anymore.

I think I like this non obsessing thing, and just doing what I’m doing. If I make the right choices most the time, those small wrong choices shouldn’t make too big of an impact.

What frustrates me the most is that I’m doing NOTHING…nothing at all…and I’m at the same place I was when I worked out regularly and ate clean. Why? It all seems wrong. I should have seen progress, at least some progress.

80% of it is what you put in your mouth…